Freedoms throne
Fame
Fame blazed upon me like a comets glare
Fame waned & left me like a fallen star
Because I told the evil what they are
& truth & falshood never wished to mar
My Life hath been a wreck — & I've gone far
For peace & truth — & hope — for home & rest
— Like Edens gates — fate throws a constant bar —
Thoughts may o'ertake the sunset in the west
— Man meets no home within a womans breast
Hopeless Agony & Hell
My Mind Is Dark & Fathomless & Wears
The Hues Of Hopeless Agony & Hell
No Plummet Ever Sounds The Souls Affairs
There Death Eternal Never Sounds The Knell
There Love Imprisoned Sighs The Long Farewell
& Still May Sigh In Thoughts No Heart Hath Penned
Alone In Loneliness Where Sorrows Dwell
& Hopeless Hope Hopes On & Meets No End
Wastes Without Springs & Homes Without A Friend
Charming Mary
Mary mary charming mary
Now the sun has sunk to rest
& the even breeze so airy
Tries to bare thy snowy breast
How I love wi thee to wander
Mary o how sweet wi thee
Dusky meadows to meander
Where no soul can hear or see
Child Harold
Another tragic poem from Clare's 'Child Harold', written in the autumn of 1841 when Clare was back in Northborough and vainly seeking Mary Joyce. My Chapbook 'Child Harold' is the only published book with all of Clare's poems under that title. Nearly all written in the year of two asylums, 1841.
Song
I think of thee at early day
& wonder where my love can be
& when the evening shadows grey
O how I think of thee
Along the meadow banks I rove
& down the flaggy fen
& hope my first & early love
To meet thee once agen
I think of thee at dewy morn
& at the sunny noon
& walks with thee—now left forlorn
Beneath the silent moon
I think of thee I think of all
How blest we both have been—
The sun looks pale upon the wall
& autumn shuts the scene
I can't expect to meet thee now
The winter floods begin
The wind sighs through the naked bough
Sad as my heart within
I think of thee the seasons through
In spring when flowers I see
In winters lorn & naked view
I think of only thee
While life breaths on this earthly ball
What e'er my lot may be
Wether in freedom or in thrall
Mary I think of thee
Hidden Treasures
A little excerpt from 'Hidden Treasures' available from me this weekend at the Festival. Its contents cannnot be found in any other Clare publications. They are the fruit of many hours research in the Clare Archives.
As couzin unto thine
& oft thy nameless sprigs have got
To wish it well with mine
When trodden down where cuddys went
Ive propt thee up agen
& tyed thee with a propping bent
Like worthless scorning men
When moles their new hills threw about
& hid thy flowers from day
Ive stooped to get my couzin out
& bared the moulds away
& know I meet thee still the same
Supprise grows warm agen
Thou little friend with out a name
Behind the hills as then
Thy little chickweed gently flowers
& out of every wind
While cows & sheep all blooms devours
They [s]till leave thee behind
Church-yard stone
From my Chapbook No.30 ‘Mary Joyce’, available from me over next weekend at the John Clare Society Festival, as will most of my 35 published books.
To come upon in line 9 the line “Lord how young bonny Mary burnt”, even if he is speaking of her blushes at their first meeting, is an astonishing shock for readers of Clare’s work. Clare, possibly unconsciously, recording the manner of her death in the most shocking way imaginable.
Mary had, as Clare had been avoiding for so long, perished in the fire at her parent’s farm-house in Glinton on the 14th of July 1838. Her grave in the churchyard of St. Benedict’s Church, Glinton was, and is, clear for all to see.
Thereto belonging fled away
The most esteemed and valued best
Are faded all and gone away
How beautiful was Mary's dress
While dancing at the meadow ball
Since Mary seemed the first of all
Lord how young bonny Mary burnt
With blushes like the roses hue
My face like water thrown upon't
Turned white as lilies i' the dew
When grown a man I went to see
The school where Mary's name was known
I looked to find it on a Tree
But found it on a low grave stone
Now is past—was this the now
In fine straw-hat and ribbons gay
I'd court her neath the white thorn bough
And tell her all I had to say
But all is gone—and now is past
And still my spirits chill alone
Loves name that perished in the blast
Grows mossy on a church-yard stone
Golden groves
The new spring grass was high
The new pinks nest was seen
Where little padded lanes went bye
In hedges warm & green
When the golden evening came
& the tree tops like a flame
Glittered on the gazing eye
Like golden groves in a golden sky
The shepherd seeks the field
Where the awthorn hedges shield
The lane way to the open plain
& sets his fold of trays again